Well, not quite. But for the third time since February, I’ve been approached about a possible job opportunity. this time via LinkedIn. It’s quite exciting and links to my thinking about spreading myself horizontally a bit more (online! filthy minds!). All this despite the fact that my online spread isn’t that good at the moment and it’s definitely on my ToDo list for, say, the next few months.
The thing is that I don’t really want to leave my current job as such. I still enjoy it, it’s close to where I live, and it does have some good perks (money is good too). However, there is a frustration in that I’m not in a position with a lot of influence or power. I’m not used to having to justify what I do and to make a business case for every single thing (having to justify why we need Firefox for instance, when all they had was IE6 FFS). They’re not very progressive and it stifles my creativity and my mind. It’s like having to deal with slow people, or children, carefully explaining everything from the very beginning to people who don’t have a fucking clue.
So, I was going to stay because of the perks and the job security, because I like the product/my colleagues, and, because I can learn a lot after all (e.g. accepting people who have expertise in other areas, working together with them towards a common goal etc.). However, in moments where I’m banging my head against the wall or having to deal with ignorance and slowness, I feel held back and that my brain is withering away.
I ‘ve always been on the edge of whatever I do, and the success of a PhD means I have less respect for people who happen to be above me in the pecking order (basically I think I can do whatever they do and probably better). If I had a job where I had more responsibility and deciding power, and where people would trust that I deliver the goods, I think I’d be happier. I just don’t like answering to people too much, especially when they have no clue about my specific area of knowledge and expertise. It’s like me telling a car mechanic about alloy wheels.
I’m a bit more open to potentially being headhunted, then. It doesn’t have to be now – but I will work on my ‘personal brand’ and just keep my eyes open for whatever may come along.